I am in a perpetual state of “not knowing” - begging answers and definitions at two in the morning and six at night, interrupting sleep and cocktail hour. Not knowing if I’m a writer. Not knowing who I am four years into grieving. Not knowing if pen, pencil, or keyboard inspires; intellectually knowing they don’t, whimsically wishing they would while waiting for the magic of words to lay spark to writer’s passion once again. Maybe I am on the dark side of the ‘in-between.’ You have such a way with words. Thank you, once again, for sharing.
Pam, it sounds like you are traveling in the in-between (and you're right, it can have a dark side, or a side that is so ambiguous or uncertain that it can shut one down). My definition of being a writer is that you're a writer if you write. I wouldn't put too much pressure on yourself. One of the things I like about the in-between state is how exploratory it can be. It's wonderful just to let curiosity bloom (so often life does the opposite). Thank you for reading, and I hope some of the words you used speak to you: whimsical, magic, spark, inspires.
I am in a perpetual state of “not knowing” - begging answers and definitions at two in the morning and six at night, interrupting sleep and cocktail hour. Not knowing if I’m a writer. Not knowing who I am four years into grieving. Not knowing if pen, pencil, or keyboard inspires; intellectually knowing they don’t, whimsically wishing they would while waiting for the magic of words to lay spark to writer’s passion once again. Maybe I am on the dark side of the ‘in-between.’ You have such a way with words. Thank you, once again, for sharing.
Pam, it sounds like you are traveling in the in-between (and you're right, it can have a dark side, or a side that is so ambiguous or uncertain that it can shut one down). My definition of being a writer is that you're a writer if you write. I wouldn't put too much pressure on yourself. One of the things I like about the in-between state is how exploratory it can be. It's wonderful just to let curiosity bloom (so often life does the opposite). Thank you for reading, and I hope some of the words you used speak to you: whimsical, magic, spark, inspires.